maggie mayhem

ahhhh REUNION! i've been dying to see you and escape provo. i might be running away and going home next weekend (don't tell anyone, it's a surprise) or maybe to st george to visit my grandma but if not we should do it next weekend! my family and erin's are gonna be here the next (for conference).

i am loving the sunshine and have resurrected my shorts, dresses, and sandals. YESSSSS! i am so excited for spring, too. i might be getting a job at a calling center (kinda embarrassing but i get paid $10/hour, the people are super cool, and the hours are perfect. plus i call people you signed up and WANT to be called, so im not bothering anyone) but i'll let you know when i get the job and it's official and stuff :)

im kind of overwhelmed right now because so much is happening so fast and everything is about to change. kevin and alex received their calls on the same day and are reporting to the mtc on the same day: june 9th. i got to be there when alex opened his but i ran out of class and was put on speaker phone for kevin's. it makes me so sad that i couldn't see the look on his face or give him a huge hug to congratulate him. i could not be happier-i am so so proud of both of them. but why do i have to say goodbye to the two most important men in my life on the same day?! insane.

i've been watching gilmore girls re-runs and i started bawling last night because it was the episode when rory and dean break up and rory's like: "i'm ready to wallow now" and i freaked out because that's going to be me in a few months. since i'm staying for spring, i have less than 5 weeks left with alex and i will have one week in california between semesters to spend time with kevin. i can't handle it. it scares me...a lot. but it's been a spiritual roller coaster these last few weeks, two. kevin's call got me thinking about the last few years and i can't explain it-it's not really something you can understand if you haven't experienced it. but i want to tell you all (as cliche as it sounds) that i know that there can be miracles today just as there were in Christ's time. i am awed by the power of prayer and fasting. i know that what has happened is impossible, and that's the best part: "for with God, nothing shall be impossible" (Luke 1:37). i can't express my gratitude for the Atonement. i love my Savior. i can't wait till the day when i open my call and get to share the things that i know to be true.

sorry this is so long...